As he pleases

I have learnt not to ask, not to let him know I'm feeling
'Cause in a cup he collects all that I was ever dreaming
Then he scatters it to the sea and says he's leaving
And suddenly I feel that I've stopped breathing
I can't pretend to be strong, not when he's the one I'm needing
And they are wrong when they tell me I'd do better just to leave him
'Cause he takes me to a place that I can breath in
But all that I can do is watch him leaving

Why can't I think of anything before him?
Am I just a soul waiting for him?

I don't want to know
No, it's better not to know
Then he can come and go as he pleases

So I have learnt not to ask, not to let him know that I miss him
'Cause I am so terrified to cool the fire in case I lose him
And I know he doesn't know just what he's doing
And he has no idea how far I'm falling

Why can't I think of anything before him?
Am I just a soul waiting for him?

I don't want to know
No, it's better not to know
He doesn't want to show
So it's better not to know
Then he can come and go as he pleases