Another rehab song

Today I feel a lot better than yesterday
Well, I guess that really ain't sayin' much
Future trippin' always seems to bring me down
But it sure beats dwellin' in the past

And now I'm tryin' to make amends
But I'm not quite sure where I should start
I guess I'll just pick up where I fell apart
And how can I be honest
With everybody e-e-e-else
I guess I'll start with tryin' to be
Honest with myself
Now here it goes

I've been sittin' up since 3 a. m
Through another dopesick, sleepless night
And when you told me that you were
Feelin' scared
I assured you everything would be alright

And now I'm tryin' to find happiness
But I'm not quite sure just what that is
All I know is I need you
If I'm ever getting there
And I guess it takes a whole lotta shit
To realize how great life is
And I guess I owe it to myself
To get some living done

Woah

This one's for Peyton, I really miss him
I heard about it at an AA meeting
I almost didn't believe you
When you told me that he died

I told him that I'd help him get clean
About 2 weeks before he OD'd
I saw that I got a couple missed calls
From him that night

So now I'm gettin' clean 'cause I can see
How easily it could've been me
Sometimes you beat the odds
Sometimes the odds beat you

And I'm trying to tell God that I'm powerless
But I'm still too much of an atheist
So I guess I'm gonna have
To do this own my own

Woah