A love affair with distance

I've lost my voice, I've said all I have to say, you're thick as porcelain as clear as cellophane.

I miss the nervous shakes I miss the way it hurt, the way it killed to think that I had you first, that I had you first.

So then I force a smile, and take the stage, my knees are weak, I try to concentrate.I'm losing air with every single breath that i take. I look into your eyes and see the chemicals, therye the whitest white, youv'e become a ghost. You're dead to me so why can't I let you go?

The phone is like a knife I drive into my ear, I had a love affair with distance and with fear. The bus is like a
hearse driving me from her, shes the blackest white, shes the perfect curse.

So then I force a smile, and take the stage, my knees are weak, I try to concentrate.I'm losing air with every single breath that i take. I look into your eyes and see the chemicals, therye the whitest white, youv'e become a ghost. You're dead to me so why can't I let you go?

And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie, you could come down on me. And if you save my life, how could i survive? When your the one who made me this way.