Free and lonely life

I've looked to the bottom
Of a bottle and a can
And I've looked for the wonder
In the leather of a man
And it was never enough, you see
It was never quite enough for me
I knew there'd be hell to pay
Along the way
For living as I chose to
And I ask myself
In the middle of the night
Just who could love me
And if theres a light
That I've failed to see
That could save me
From this free and lonely life?

I looked to my mother
And she gave a steady hand
But she was short on answers
So I kept short on plans
I looked to the city
I took a hard, steady look at fame
And I laughed when I realized that it was
Just another empty name
And it, couldn't be enough, you see
No it, couldn't be enough for me
I knew there'd be hell to pay
Along the way
For living as I chose to

And I ask myself in the middle of the night
Just who could love me and if theres a light
That I failed to see
That could save me
From this free and lonely life?

Fair's just what you get away with

Eventually you don't miss what's not there
But I never figured out how to just not care
And maybe that's all I need, you see
Is for it to never be enough for me
I knew there'd be hell to pay
Along the way
For living as I chose to
I knew there'd be hell to pay
Along the way
For living as I chose to

Fair's just what you get away with (2x)
It's what you get away with
Yeah, it's what you get away with