Lights out

I hope you don't mind that I could never see
The center of all is you and never me
Once I loved you, but then, finally
There's nothing in me but cold irony, because

Oh man, your life is full of adventures
As you search for new places to go
It's not an escape because in the end
You'll stay alone

Loner, you loner
Over and over!
And nowhere to go
I'm watching you laughing
But inside I'm laughing at you

I don't really mind that you could never see
The chances in us, or in me

But inside I'm crying for you

I see your loneliness behind your big brave acts
Behind your charming smile
Behind your shiny eyes I see you're cold as ice
You're everything you revile

I wanted you to lead me and take me somewhere
I didn't want to live in this dusk one more day
Enlightenment came but it's not the one
That I want to see