I love you honey but the season is over

The caravans are rolling out
On the closing day
I see you standing in the crowd
I want so much to say
If I don't look as lost as you
It's just because I've learnt to hide it
Walking the tightrope everynight
That was all we ever needed to know
I love you honey but the season is over
Where are you going ?
My conscious is up and down
I'm a human cannonball
I don't feel so holy now
Have I ever been at all ?