Never want you back

I never told a lie i didn't wish was true
She loves me like she's clinging to her life
The future's a phone call from the grandchildren's room
She loves being a mother, and she's an excellent wife
But the silence finds truth between every word

I threw my phone in the road in the busiest lane
Cause it calls you by habit when i got nothin' to say
And it won't let me pick up if it isn't your name
And even if it did, what would i talk about anyway?

Cause my secrets are told by the silence i keep
The whole world's on mute only your words repeat

I won't ever want you back
It takes two and i won't dance
Like you were taking out the trash
Turning now into the past

My brain knows the pain i'm about to endure
So i'm stumbling through the day like i don't know my left from the ground
It's like time is a surgeon and i'm under the knife
And i'm not allowed to think til you're removed and i'm found

But those phantom pains ache like i'm losing a limb
When i reach out to touch you, you're just touching him

I won't ever want you back
It takes two and i won't dance
Like you were taking out the trash
Turning now into the past

I won't ever want you back
Keep my heart and keep my past
And die alone from living fast
Three more lies i wish were fact