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Who would I be, if I never met you?
It's not like I don't know that I can't go on
But, I don't want to till I hear you sing me a song
It's only you, that could bring me back, but you only remember that
I only ever seemed to cause you grief and now
You're serious as a heart attack

I'm trying to be sincere
But all I think about is lying since you left me here
About the way that I've changed, how I don't act the same way
And if you walked into the room I wouldn't be going insane
If our paths someday collide
Will you still be looking at me through indifferent eyes?

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind all the time
It's always you, who changes my mind act like your fine
Then confront me out of nowhere telling me your not mine
It's always you

If you throw away what you know is right
You'll end up just like me! Out of your mind
For the past five years I've been waiting for someone
That's never coming my way
All of my memories of you are fading with time
It's so hard to remember when you called yourself mine
When you left I found the worst in me, that's a sign

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind all the time
It's always you, who changes my mind act like your fine
Then confront me out of nowhere telling me your not mine
It's always you

You said that I would see you again, you said this
Wasn't the last time, that this could not be the end
It's so incredible how much of a low life I've exposed
Myself to, of course I've always blamed you
I knew I threw away the only chance I've ever got
At proving that I could stand up and take what I want
You only ever wanted me to show you that I'd give up
The life that I had, just for a chance

Every day I'm wondering if I'll ever change
Addicted to the pain I feel when I hear your name
Picturesque memories of you haunt me in my dreams
But every time I wake your gone and I'm left to face the day, alone
Everything I do I think I do it for you
It's sad it's fucking sick but the worst part is it's true
I know you'll never hear this but it's all I can do
Just spill my fucking guts and hope that you get a clue

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind all the time
It's always you, who changes my mind act like your fine
Then confront me out of nowhere telling me your not mine
It's always you