Not ok but it's ok

I found satisfaction
Just knowing you were listening

I found something special
I tried to make it last

Yet my head hurt me
It pushed into the past

I tried to plead my sorry
But I can not express

The way this got me feeling
I had to just digress

I don't wanna be here no more
I'm trapped my head
I'm trapped in my thoughts
I just wanna be free

I won't have to run away
I won't have to see your face
I won't have to lead astray
I won't have to find my place

I won't have to feel your skin
I won't have a life to live
I won't have to be afraid
I don't need to be okay

Everything seems to go fast
Yet here I am still in the past
Trying to find just something more
Than what I had with you before