Moving forward

As candid as I am
I've never had the courage to
Meet my own demands
In spite of what I'm telling you

I'm truly scared of death
A constant fear of what's coming next
And if this song survives beyond my time
I'll be pleasantly surprised

You have to know that there's an aching fear
At the bottom of my gut
Going on what it is I hear
About mortal men and paradise

Oh I know, my instinct's clear
Devout to my incentives
But while I'm still here
I'd rather make my presence felt

And I've been wrestling with my heart and my mind
As I'm starting to find I'm the one left behind
I can't rely on the others in line
who have wasted their time, looking at what's inside

And it must be who you are behind closed doors
My intuition is oblivious to what's in store
In fact, my guess is as good as yours
And in due time I'll realize what I'm looking for

A dream, a common misconception
is that they are not attainable
An optimistic ode to failure
And we are parts in a machine
that is built to run, til it is done
and we are forced to find another home

And I've been wrestling with my heart and my mind
As I'm starting to find I'm the one left behind
I can't rely on the others in line
who have wasted their time, looking at what's inside

It must be that I can feel it anyway
This strange sensation is unreal
And I feel connected to everything

I can't luck out any longer. Am I unaware, Am I unaware?

I'm far from cautious but I'm safer than you'll ever know
I'm aware, Oh I'm aware