I don't wanna have to lie

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel
I can't eat, can't sleep
I'm on my knees, praying for a miracle
It's all right, what you say, like a knife
I know you like the taste of blood
I love you, I hate you, I have you, I lose you
I just want someone to love

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody
I just wanna light, I wanna smoke more cigarettes
You think that I like gettin hurt
But I do it, I can't seem to help myself
I'm a big girl, but big girls get hurt too, and they cry
You think that I'm tough enough
But I know when you look at me right now
That all you can see is blood
I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel
Waves of sadness, waves of grief
A river that feels like it'll never stop runnin'
And all you can see is the lies
I know it's all over my face
I can't change, I can't hide

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody
About how I feel, (ohh whoa ohh)
Don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel