Hold on to silence

On the surface of this dismal dream
I find your reasoning so unkind
And in my darkest,morbid morning hours
I find them drifting around in my mind
It's nonsensical, not understood
And deep inside I wish I could
Believe in you to find yourself
In this lonely shell, only time will tell
How we can reverse this hell
I believe in you...but not myself
Now I'm holding on, to what's already gone
I'm trembling on the inside, for what was never mine
But don't let go of this love... Before you even know
I'll save you from this hell and drag you from where you dwell
And still my walls keep breaking down
In this hurt I drown
I disappear
And still you wander further away
To where the silence stays
Are you here?
What have you done, that made you run
I'll break and bleed for what I need but
There's nothing more... I can do
And it's dark in here, I'm controlled by fear and my only wish is to have you near but there's nothing more...coming from you
Now I'm holding on, to what's already gone
I'm trembling on the inside, for what was never mine
But don't let go of this love before you even know
I'll save you from this hell and drag you from where you dwell.
And I'm still holding on, to what you say is wrong
I'm dying on the inside, for the reasons that you hide
But don't you let it go, or darling we will never know
I'll save you from despair, if you'd only let me near