The battle

What am I here to find out?
What lesson should I learn?
This seems to elude me
No matter what I do

The answer doesn't really exists
It is something you can never know
Something you shouldn't know
Why do I keep looking?

I see people spending their whole lives looking
Missing out on the few years they have
Wasting away trying to understand
This rhetorical question of life

Has it been me versus the rest?
This struggle has beaten me from the inside
No winner in this battle
Just another broken man

What have I not learned?
Spent my time, my life
Trying to break the sphere
But just tiring and sitting

Why must I choose my place?
I thought I knew it
But then the battle began
And I had to choose