Mellow, cool, and painfully aware

Tired pleasing woman touch for life in need of love
Eternal bliss is numb but passing sadness overwhelm despite the love
Hidden disatisfaction just confused inside in me
The need to hide is useless, peace is on her side
I'm a peaceful man
And being mellow cool is so desirable
All I need is something to believe
And I can't believe in one mistake
Easy lies build one on one in time
Even nice guys can lose control
Mellow, cool, and painfully aware
Deeper, cruel, painfully aware
It's my best
Surely meaningless
I hurt her, felt so angry yet so powerless