Where are you now?

for every step i take
there's something bad ahead
not even all my shrinks
could make me feel less sad

i always take the knive
and point it to my heart
if only i could find
what turns it all apart

the more i try to understand it all the more i cry
i never wanted to become this person, am i blind?
if this is dreaming, i am begging someone wake me up
is it my destiny to feel i always fucked it up?

where are you now
you should be here
where are you now
where did you go?

you used to promise that you'd be here for me when i cried
and i believed you when i found out all about about your lies
i thought that i could bear the pain and i would never fall
you made me think that i deserved what i was feeling after all

but now i know
you have a problem
and now i know
it's not my problem
i guess that now
the problem is
that i am thinking, daddy, that you should just not exist

where are you now?
where have you gone?
what did i do
you seem so far, so far...

where are you now?
what have i done?
did i not see
that i am pushing you so far away?

where are you now?
you should be here
where are you now?
where did you do, daddy?

where are you know?
where did you go?
where are you now?
i want to know.

i want to know
i want to know...

where did you go?
where did you go?
what did i do?
i am losing you
have i lost you?
i am losing you.