Gates to purgatory

Is this my father real or is it just a dream
answer this question have I died or do I live
and if it's a dream then why am I afraid of it
afraid to feel the fear that penetrates my being

how can I see my life passing in front of me
i feel the pain that other felt because of me
how can I judge myself when I was wrong or right
nothing but darkness now but I can see a light

I hear a voice now ''son it is time to leave,
your hour hasn't come you must go back and leave''
everything disappears but something has remained
my spirit I have met my soul I have regained