Pull me out

I've lost track of the time and so have all my friends
Spending winters reflecting the summer just to feel
Warm again
I've learned my lesson the hard way
And taught myself to set aside
All the sure things and certainties
That were promised in my life

I'd rather crawl where i belong
Than live a life i didn't earn
If home is where the heart is then my heart is never
Home
I've learned to come to terms and grow into my own
Now i can see everything for what it is and what it
Means
All these doubts i've hid over these years
Now mean nothing to me

I've been feeling like a dead beat
I have nothing left to say
And i'm living in my mothers basement
With less friends than i had yesterday
I was running out of answers
I couldn't keep my mind at ease
Spending each day as a panic mess
My problems get the best of me

I'd rather crawl where i belong
Than live a life i didn't earn
If home is where the heart is then my heart is never
Home
I've learned to come to terms and grow into my own
Now i can see everything for what it is and what it
Means
All these doubts i've hid over these years
Now mean nothing to me

I'm looking up for the first time in a long time
So pull me out
I've had enough
I'm in so low and i blame myself
I'm ready to leave this, leave this in the past

So pull me out
I've had enough
I'm in so low and i blame myself
I'm finally done with, done with finishing last