Dreams within dreams

"Who could I be?,
Where have I been?,
What's this? Blood...
No! not again!"

All of this time, I cannot recall...
"Who am I?"
Now even more than ever before, I don't know...

I've been here many times before...
I cannot remember them either...
I must remember...
The blood, it's all over me...

Visualize another shadow, unconsciousness magnifies reality...
Forced into lethargy, catching a glimpse of your "second self"...
Dreaming your fantasy...

Erotic sensations over fill the episodes, as the gore mirrors back in my face...
Unexplained lust, a true love - submerged within my dreams...

With curiosity you finally learn, morbid sense of butchery...
To your "second self" it becomes nightmarish...
Reality...Dream...Reality...Dream...

Shocked subconscious, awakened by a ghastly scene...
Body convulses, cringing with fear - to realize you are not awake...

Continuation - denied
Gone are the visions of ecstasy...
Discouraged, frustrations -
Aroused with fits...of rage

Chaos within my head, mental struggle...
What!? a scream from my mind...
"No! not that! No!"

The finding of the true self, an accident of fate...
Hidden as a dream within my dreams...

All of this time, I cannot recall...
"Who am I?"
Now even more than ever before -
I don't know...