Present. if, then...

Did I really sin?
Should I suffer these bleedings within?
All of my body lying stigmatised
Beneath my skin -
A flood oversized -
Baptised - sacrificed -
Cannibalised!

I know now that every man
Hash is deadly sins
Based on the scale of his
Own hollow conscience
Will everyone feel
The bleeding, deadly touch?
Or was eight just a number
Too much?
Soul transition, pain ignition
- Blood corruption!

What if my reasons to believe
Have turned invalid?
What is desire to deceive
Have proven solid?
What if I missed
The difference of
Ecstatic and fanatic?
What if?...What if?...
What if.....then…?