Denial

I just wanted to understand
Why be so
Why do I have to live
Even if I die in the end

Days do not want to spend
And I got tired of waiting
One day I hope to discover
And only thus will not need to pretend

I'll live
Just to live, just to die
Just to try to forget
At the end
Is always equal
I'll die

I'll die
Only to forget, to not live
Maybe dead smile I go
Of all evil
Because after all
My order arrived

Tell me that this will pass
I do not need to suffer
So I pretend to forget
For you do not worry

I want it that way
If you do not ask for help is because
I do not want to hear
And not try to understand me
Because even I do not know why
And forever

I'll live
Just to live, just to die
Just to try to forget
At the end
Is always equal
I'll die

I'll die
Only to forget, to not live
Maybe dead smile I go
Of all evil
Because after all
My order arrived

Loneliness depression
Attention
Indecision...
Its negation