Drowning into the mental demise

Silent scream, no words get out
Of my dry throat
Pull my hands to spectral figures
Seemed to me existing people

With horror in stillness
Steer at last seconds of my life.
Life that much shorter than I thought.

Absolute helplessness
Panic fear
Hopelessness

Death drew me down
To the sticky bog of unconsciousness
I see her laughing
Sharping decrepit scythe

I can not breath
Dripping blood from nose
Nasty salty taste

Words lost their meaning
Memory has failed
Base knowledge is waste

I loose control
Senses grow turbid
Feelings go astray

Now I realize
That my end is near
Soon I gonna die.

Experience
is useless

Material world
Lost it's value

Spiritual world
Is forgotten

Left only born
primitive instincts
and unbending will

I close my eyes, die out.
There is no strengths to fight
Body has faint away
Sank into oblivion

Persistent will-power
Yell at me Stand UP!
With all mine's might again and again
I try to get on feet.
On my feet.

Silent scream, no words get out
Of my throat
With horror in stillness
Steer at last seconds of my life.