The numbing victory

Laying in a room so cold
Feaing what the truth is
Paralized by pain so strog
Prayng that god will end this
Restless nigths and endless days
The subconscience is my screaming
Broken life and shattered dreams
Existence without a meaning
Travel long and venture far
For the hate will never leave my soul
Linger in pain but retaliate none
The numbing victory will carry me free
Seeing the dirt covering sigth
Feeling reality extract me
Gripped by anger taking hold
Vengeful actions will not torment thee
Never sleeping, always thinking
Never dreaming, numb to seeing
Never laughing, guily feeling
Always believing, an eventual prevailing