Because he's there, and he hates me

I haven't seen you in awhile.
How has it been? it's been awhile.
I'm not okay, not that you care, i'm just passing the time.
Hey! hey! hey,
I don't think this is too bad, maybe we can start again?
Wait, never-fucking-mind, you're still the same and so am i.
But let's pretend that we're okay, is that okay? just right now.
I miss your hand inside of mine, i miss the times we'd use to cry,
When mom was drunk and yours just sucked and everything was so sixteen.
And although i still see you around, itís just not the same.