My last song (for her)

I call you up, you turn me down
I try to smile, but I can only frown
I call again and you make it out
Then we make up, and then make out
You freak out, so I dip out
I was stuck, like what the fuck?
My heart shouts, and my mind clouds
You pushed down on the elevator
I guess that means I'll see you later
We wrestled and we nestled
Those key steps to undress you
That kiss was real, and those lips are still
Sweetest flavor with a hint of steel
So confused, who broke the rules?
It wasn't me, and it wasn't you
I guess it's cool, shit

I should have seen this coming, with the way that you were running
With the way that you were acting, to how I was reacting
And I can't believe it, how you hit me past our season
And you never gave a shit when you said that I was leaving
And now, you're saying that you love me, tell me that you miss me
But music is a part of me, you tried to make that history
You crushed it, you beat it, you threw it to the ground
And set it fire in the air until I couldn't make a sound
Now love is what I search for, but not something you gave me
But now you come to me and say "I want you back my baby
I want you, I need you, you're something from up above."
But you never gave you're heart, so now I can't give love
I was never shown it, you're my opponent
I'm trying to be something that you can't see and also you never could own it
These women can't see this, it's just swag and money
You're heart is fucked and I know that I can't fix it up honey

I loved you so, you showed me none
You said that you me to father your daughter or son
But that's all wrong, I'm far too young
But then you stop telling me that you think that I could be the one
So I said I love you, and act like you made me
You put on a front, to act like you hate me
I pushed you down, and I know that I hurt you
And that's when I realized that I broke my one rule
I asked forgiveness, you walked away crying
Both of our hearts were broke and I was dying
Lying, but I still kept on trying
Our cycle of love and lust kept me smiling

But you didn't call that night, and I heard that you moved out
Arizona was your new home, you we're chilling with a new crowd
But three months later, your parents wouldn't let you inside
You were pregnant with a small child, and I can only imagine how much you cried
The next morning was church day, all they did was show you the door
They said that you slept around, they called you a slut, they called you a whore
So you called me that night, you had an almost dead phone
And the words that followed turned into a sad sad poem
But what I didn't know back then, that poem turned out as a note
Then you dropped the phone and I could hear you, slowly, choke
I shook with pure shock this couldn't be, real life
You gave your hope up, and you gave into all that strife
So I prayed to God that night, and in that prayer I cursed his name
I said I'd give all the money in the world to take away that someone's pain
And this is real rap right here, you know that it comes from the heart
And I was wondering if you could tell me why this hurt me from the start
These girls and these boys, they listen to me every single day
But they never realize the truth that sits and waits in every single word I say
And this isn't fake, this is all real life, and I'm getting it off my chest
Maybe if it's public to the world then you'll see, I can finally rest
I can finally rest
I can finally rest
All I want is to rest
So can I finally rest?

I call you up, you turn me down
I try to smile, but I can only frown
I call again and you make it out
Then we make up, and then make out
You freak out, so I dip out
I was stuck, like what the fuck?
My heart shouts, and my mind clouds
You pushed down on the elevator
I guess that means I'll see you later
We wrestled and we nestled
Those key steps to undress you
That kiss was real, and those lips are still
Sweetest flavor with a hint of steel
So confused, who broke the rules?
It wasn't me, and it wasn't you
I guess it's cool, fuck