Equal measures

It's too late at night to hold my sight
Why can't I see that I am blind?
My patience is wearing thin
So I guess I'll have to take this on the chin
Despite the words I said so long ago I still cared

And I cared that I never got a piece of what we claimed
And I care that I always shouldered the blame
Despite the words that I said so long ago
Despite the words that I've learnt to know
And I've shown this to be a bitter part of me
I'm a loss if I leave
And my friend is my foe, and how can I grow
When I'm stuck here?

So I hide away and just let the days begin to scare me
Into thinking that it'll haunt me 'til I can't rest
But I suppose the nights are worse
They've made me scared of sleeping
For someone who's supposed to care, you made it look so easy
I thought the problem was you can't see
You pulled me apart and you left me to bleed
But now I know that you were far from blind
You saw it all the time, you watched and you smiled

And I cared that I never got a piece of what we claimed
And I care that I always shouldered the blame
Despite the words that I said so long ago
Despite the words that I've learnt to know
And I've shown this to be a bitter part of me
I'm a loss if I leave
And my friend is my foe, and how can I grow
When I'm stuck here?

Cause I'm still here
Girl, I'm talking to you
I'm still here
Equal measures aside
Don't trip with my mind
I'm leaving here