Better off dead

I can hear my heart beating
I can feel my blood flow through my veins
As i toss and turn and turn again
Will this nightmare i'm living ever end.
I lie here every single night
Wishing that i'd never flown
Why won't these spirits leave me
Why must my mind always deceive me

Chorus
Sometimes i feel myself slipping
Or when my mind ststarts drifting
When the thoughts get lost in my head and i
Start to think i'd better off dead

Here comes my shattered dreams
There goes my long lost borrowed visions
Separation brings me sadness
While i am bordering on total madness
I stagger through these days
A mere shell of who i once was
Paranoia taints my feelings
All this shame and guilt i'm now realizing.

Chorus (solo)

Peace comes as hell grows silent
Find my way to a fitful sleep
Pain returns with the sun's rising
This bitterness inside is not surprising.

Chorus