The cross (i have to bear)

I feel forsaken - Everything was taken - I turned against me - I turned against me...

Tubes sticking into me. There's blood everywhere
Damn that surgery. Damn the choice I made

The ride of my life. Lasted only for a while
Now the cross I have bear. Is there for all to see...

If I could I'd end this pain. I can't take the shame I feel
But my hands feel too weak. And they say that I need sleep

But they won't let me sink. Into never ending sleep
Now the cross I have bear. Is there for all to see

First Chorus:
Why do I feel so insecure
My own body, it won't work
I feel like I'm hanging on I'm hanging on a thread
I can take this pain but not regret...

They say that I must eat. They say that I look weak
What the fuck do they know. Please stay away from me

How I want to end this pain. But my mind is too weak
This fucking cross I have to bear. Is there for all to see

Second Chorus:
Why do I feel so insecure
My own body it won't work
I feel like I'm hanging on I'm hanging on a thread
I can take this pain but not regret...
Now all is on the line
Do I have to read between these lies
I feel like I'm hanging on I'm hanging on a thread
I can take this pain but not regret...