You will disappear

Apparently disposed
but when I just don't know
everything is different now.
Appearing in your clothes
you saved from long ago
and wore for me to see
just what I had to leave.
The words you can translate
while I self medicate
through the passing year
so you will disappear.
My breath is what you stole.
Part of me got so old
everything just happens now.
Before I stop to die
I'll measuer my life by
what I never had
and what I gave to you.
The words you can translate
while I self medicate
through the passing year
so you will disappear
The promise that you broke
is passing through your throat
and out of such a pretty mouth.
I believe it so
but feelings of control
always leave my mind
it happens all the time.
The words you can translate
while I self medicate
through the passing year
so you will disappear