State of grace

First I tolf to myself there was no more than the sound
Of the wind through an open door, and if no one
entered it was no crime - at least it was none of
mine, and all isaw I kept at bay, an empty heard
in an emtpy space, there was no reason for me to
live, I had nothing to give, nothing to give

I closed my eyes and to my surprise my heard
was beating I was still alive
Was there really nothing I could do?
No, it can't be true!
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself for so long
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself
And it can't go on
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace
I'm lying in state
I've ben lying to myself and it can't go on

At first I tried to blame the world for all evils
That were unfurled, flags of sin blowing in the
Wind over church and state, the rich and the
Great, but when I listened all I really heard was
My own voice and my own words, sometimes
Begging for love, sometime screaming with
hate, screaming with hate

I don't trust that voice in my head, it's not mine it's the voice of the dead
And why do you ask me what I think is true?
I learned it all from you!
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself for so long
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself and it can't go on
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace
I'm lying in state
I've lying to myself and can't go on

In the end, you are my only friend and all I see is you,
and all I have to give, my friend, I will give it to you.
Who do I mean? Who am I talking to?
How could it be more plain to you? Wake up.
Look in your heart. Who are you? What is your name?

If I take a shit in your perfect world it's only so
You'll know me by my smell
And though you turn away like you don't understand
You know all too well
You don't want to look, you don't want to touch
You don't want tp pay cause it costs so much
You just smile and wish me well
Well, you can go to hell!
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace
I'm lying in state
I've lying to myself and can't go on