If i could

I've been learning from my mistakes
But with every failing there comes a deeper pain
And I know life's been just as hard for you
And you've been through things that I've been through
But I want you to understand
I'll try my best to erase this mess so we can start again

I've never been the kind of person to love himself
But for you I will try my best to break this spell
Of the hate I hold towards my past
And search for something deeper, something that will last
Because I was never sure what it was I'm looking for
Until the last time I saw your face
But by then it was too late

If I could turn back time
If I could make you mine
If I could change the way I used to be
To let you see the side of me
I never show until I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in, let you in

If I could somehow find the words to speak
If I could find a way to make you see
If I could break away and set this free
So you could see the side of me
That I never show unless I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in, let you in

I've always lived to watch my back so I wouldn't get hurt
But being insecure I haven't gotten far, I guess I never learned
And the reason that I pushed you away was because I just felt numb
But now I feel the pain when I realize what we could have become
I couldn't promise much before but now my feelings grew
And I find myself falling farther away as I fall into you

Maybe I'm not everything that you're looking for
But I could hold you tight on the coldest night and show you I'm so much more

If I could turn back time
If I could make you mine
If I could change the way I used to be
To let you see the side of me
I never show until I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in, let you in

If I could somehow find the words to speak
If I could find a way to make you see
If I could break away and set this free
So you could see the side of me
That I never show unless I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in, let you in

You looked and saw a piece of me
But a piece is all you saw
Underneath I'm what you believed
And I'm working on my flaws
Why can't you open up your heart
And look into my eyes
I only wanted to be there for you
Why can't you realize

In my mind you're in my arms
And there are no traces of scars
Everything is perfect
Could it really have been that way
Would you be next to me today
Would everything be perfect
I guess I'll never know

If I could turn back time
If I could make you mine
If I could change the way I used to be
To let you see the side of me
I never show until I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in, let you in

If I could somehow find the words to speak
If I could find a way to make you see
If I could break away and set this free
So you could see the side of me
That I never show unless I'm sure
I would open up that door
And let you in