With this razorblade

So it's over now
And I'm not sure why I'm crying
I guess it could have been more
But my fears prevent me from trying

Why does it hurt so much
God, I never even had her to begin with
I think I hate myself
There's proof on my wrists and the bruises on my fists

Why did I push her away
I hope that she finds happiness
Why does it always end this way
I'm sorry that I'm such a mess
God make me stronger I pray
I should have never said I love you though I meant it

So it's over now
And I'm sweating and shaking and covered in tears
I could have made this so much more
But I'm slowly breaking from these useless fears

Why did we even meet
Were we meant to be something
Do you see me as a freak
God I hope she isn't hurting cause of me
I'm nothing special
I'm nothing at all

Why did I push her away
I hope that she finds happiness
Why does it always end this way
I'm sorry that I'm such a mess
God make me stronger I pray
I should have never said I love you though I meant it

Everytime my heart beats my pain shows
Everywhere she goes my love goes
I can't take this feeling
Hold me now

I gave up before I tried
I told the truth before I lied
I smiled wide before I cried
I lived in you until I died inside
And with this razorblade I say goodbye
With this razorblade I say goodbye
With this razorblade I say goodbye
Goodbye

I'm sorry that I failed you
I can't take this feeling
Hold me now

The darkness comes to take me
My last thought will be of you
Your beautiful face, the words you gave
I should have never given up on you
God save me, I'm such a fool