Between the filth and deviance

I flew through the layers of reality askew
To reveal the naked pleasure of the deep,
As i climbed from beneath
I heard the feeble people breathe,
Shivering in fear of near tragedy.
I traded innocence for chronicles of decadence
To find an inner sense between the lines,
But as i read my hair grayed
I was afraid to witness fate
Predestined for mortals till the end of all times.

So i began my mournful trip
A newborn child, still pure and stripped
I watched, myself untouched by sin,
The fall of sodom and its twin,

That bloodshed left the first attaint,
I stared on the verge of faint,
Embraced by choking reek i seemed
To understand the holy scheme.

I took to my heels spurred on by fright
And did not stop 'til i descried
Four mounted shadows in the mist
The last turned back and grinned at me.

I tried to lead his rats away,
But cursed was the pipe i played,
And people were too sick to see
The beasts obey and follow me...
Grey apostles of mine!

I passed through the ages with a feeling of disgust
Congealing like a guise upon my face,
And the heavens grew dark
For every sin became a mark
Adding to the picture of infinite disgrace.
I crept into chambers where monarchs quietly slept
To spread the prophecy of dismal days,
But all my word remained unheard
As if i were the foe of lord,
And pyres devoured the souls set ablaze.

And i,
Still trying to murder the grime,
Kept braving the mire of life
And sentenced myself to exile...

I was alone against the world,
I felt the pain of every man,
But knew: i surely would withstand,
Although it rose a thousandfold.

And fiercely tempted and seduced,
I saw a dream of me enthroned,
My grandest name engraved in stone
Yet i was strong enough to refuse.

I walked the path of ancient kings
Escorted by the birds of prey
To find at last a secret cave
And crypt of fatal truth within,

I entered it to see the fool,
But mirrors took me for a ghoul,
And when i left, depressed and blind,
I swear! i heard a laugh behind!

I could not see the mask i wore
And both accursed and adored
A hypocrite called to encore
I bore the blame for blood and blight.

I sipped from the envenomed well,
And babylon collapsed and fell,
As i staggered on a rope
Between the filth
And deviance...