New destiny

So this is what it comes to
On my knees beside you
And crying
Please tell me that it's not true
Whatever can I do
I'm trying
My tears are bleeding from me
So how can you still be
Smiling
You're lying there in your grave
But I'm the one afraid
Of dying

But the memories once banished
Suddenly are catching up to me
And the freedom I so cherished
Has cost so much more than then tyranny
Though I stand amongst vast fortune,
All I want is who was traded To hear her voice

Will I make it
Can I live without you
Will you watch over
Can I be the man you loved

I look with your blue eyes
Desperate for reasons why
I'm living
Searching for something I know
Living life needs no
Justifying
You say it was meant to be
Not the tragedy
Underlying
So how does the story end
What life am I destined
And fearing

But the memories once banished
Suddenly are catching up to me
And the freedom I so cherished
Has cost so much more than then tyranny
Though I stand amongst vast fortune,
All I want is who was traded To hear her voice

I can hear it
Or do my ears deceive me
Is it you who calls my name?

I need to tear away this veil
This suicidal deceit
Or today there won't be nothing left
Of who I was yesterday

I need to tear away this veil
This rising fear ending me
Or today there won't be nothing left
Of who I was yesterday

Leave me be with my self-delusions
They alone remain
Needless are these mind-intrusions
I will go my own way

This couldn't wait until tonight
No one to hold my hand now

I need to tear away this veil
This suicidal deceit
Or today there won't be nothing left
Of who I was yesterday

I need to tear away this veil
This rising fear ending me
Or today there won't be nothing left
Of who I was yesterday

But distant whispers
Silently call to me now
And the wind it
Seems to speak my name...