Tired and awake

Something in the way you bloom
Soft cracks, subtly scratched, and skewed
Lullabies and afternoons
You’ve past, withering fast, confused

I know, it’s a mistake
Falling in love, just to make a friend stay
Disgrace, give me a break
I’m trying to die happy someday
Heaven, let me come stay?
What would it cost
How would I pay?
Please just, save me a place
Tired and I’m awake

Something in the way we move
Camouflaged, everyone hides in two’s
Entourage, go chase the group
It’s a rats race, always afraid, to lose

I know, it’s a mistake
Falling in love, just to make a friend stay
Disgrace, give me a break
I’m trying to die happy someday
Heaven, let me come stay?
What would it cost
How would I pay?
Please just, save me a place
Tired and I’m awake

Oh I loathe, anyone sways me
Back and forth, porcelain daisy
I’m sure, puppeteers made me
Tied, arms high
Uncontrolled, strung up and crazy
Take hold, patient constraining
I loathe, how I’ve been tamed to
Fear goodbyes

I know, it’s a mistake
Falling in love, just to make a friend stay
Disgrace, give me a break
I’m trying to die happy someday
Heaven, let me come stay?
What would it cost
How would I pay?
Please just, save me a place
Tired and I’m awake

Tired and I’m awake
I’m tired, and I’m
Awake