Walking through water

The hospital bed is my sanctuary, I no longer want to be a part of this world
The voice speaks to me, but I ignore it

While I'm opening my eyes, I fear just what I might see
I'm wrapped to machines around, and to the machine that I’ve become
As I scan my life, I can’t contemplate in this complicated world
These tubes will produce more life juice then I ever will

I fell like I am walking through the water and I wonder
Can I
Breath in
Without choking

I'm not fit to play this game
Chance is a blank screen with one steady line
When I have it all, I want more
When I have nothing I want nothing at all
If I'm praying then why can’t I just believe

I feel like I am walking through the water and I wonder
Can I
Breath in
Without choking

Let me out!

Why can’t it all be the way I want to?
Suffocating by my beliefs, I want to know
Crucified on my bed
Tubes are in my stigmas
I'm lying here and I'm longing for the end

Dispute the state I am in
I'm still having good opinion about myself
I don’t know why I shouldn't go on when my mind is telling me that
I can be Jesus and Judas and that is ok
When I can be no one, and I can be all, so why can’t I be God?

Come one
Breath in – it’s all right
Breath in - all is fine
Breath in - don’t fall away, don’t look away, come to the light
Breath in – there is nothing there, there is no one there, so come on and
Wake up – dreamer
Wake up – dreamer
Awake! Come on
Awake! Everything will be all right

Who are you to judge me?
For all the colors of the world? No
Don’t fall away, don’t look away, come to the light
There is nothing there, there is no one there, so come one
I will find my own peace of awakening when I want to
So hide your face and bleed for our sins in the corner
I don’t know what you think you are, but I am so much more!