Counter productive

A counter productive role, the only one I play
So I'm going nowhere fast, I take it day to day
Searching for something new, so I can run
And when I finally think I'm there, I'm back where I started from

Gotta find a way, a better way
Cannot maintain and it's a question of integrity
You can't catch up, running out of time
But you're gonna try (anyway)

Staring from the outside again, I don't want in
But I keep on getting pushed, you know I can't win
Compromise who you are and don't ask why
You know you're finally grown up when you start to live the lie

You're gonna try [x4]