The hour

I know each minute's counting
My decision to end all despair
The sudden chill I'm feeling
Comes from within me
Is there another way
Hidden or forgotten at some stage
Forgive me
I've lost my way
Daylight breaks & brings warmth to this place
A mask worn as an illusion of my strength
All this years still longing
For something I don't understand
So close almost touching
Yet light - years away
The hour
Evolution at stand still
The hour
I'm the voice from within
From where I am standing
The path for me to go seems clear
And the eye my eyes are meeting
Seems both peaceful & fair
I knew it would end someday
I've made my bed & so I...
Oh father please forgive me
I've lost my faith