Beyond the pale

And sex was always there
From when I was only eight years Tempting me, leaving me thirsty
Sweat, skin, a pulse divine
To balance this restless mind
It seemed so wonderfully physical

Oh, the blood, the lust
The bodies that color the world:
All drugs to die for
Won't you share my fire?
How could love make that world a minefield of forbidden ground?
A map of untouchable skin and silenced desire

And love was there in vain, profound and deep but traced with pain
Too early for a child of ten
Loving the pure and sane he sought the goddesses unstained
Watching them turn to flesh again
Hungry for both the purity and sin, life seemed to him merely like a gallery of how to be
And he was always much more human than he wished to be
But there is a logic to his world, if they could only see

Wishing
Sickened
Ill
Ticking

Someone, still this hunger (it's in my blood) always growing stronger (ticking)
Budapest, I'm learning
Budapest, you're burning me

This is not who I wanted to be
This is not what I wanted to see
She's so young so why don't I feel free now that she is here under me?

Naked
Touching
Soft
Clutching

And then, after all, it lead me here to wake up again
Seeking a love that might make me feel free in myself
But then it proves to be something that hurts inside when we touch
So I move on, I lose my way
Astray I'm trying too much to feel unchained, to burn out this sense of feeling cold
And every day I seek my prey: someone to taste and to hold
I feel alive during the split second when they smile and meet my eyes
But I could cry 'cause I feel broken inside

Come and drown with me
The undertow will sweep us away
And you will see that I'm addicted to my honesty
Trust
'Cause after all my sense of truth once brought me here
But I've lost control and I don't know if I am true to my soul
I've lost control and I don't know if I am true to my soul
Losing control
And I don't know if I am true at all

And we were always much more human than we wished to be

And I remember when you said you've been under him
I was suprised to feel such pain
And all those years of being faithful to you
Despite the hunger flowing through my veins
And I have always tried to calm things down
Swallow down, swallow down
"It's just another small thorn in my crown"
But suddenly one day there was too much blood in my eyes
And I had to take this walk down Remedy Lane of whens and whys

Empty
Licking
Clean
Choking

Someone, still this hunger (possessing my mind) always growing stronger (craving)
Budapest, I'm learning
Budapest, I'm burning me

This is not who I wanted to be
This is not what I wanted to see
She's so young so why I don't feel free now that she's under me?
In the morning she's going away
In a Budapest taxi I've paid
Seeking freedom I touched the untouched
It's too much
I'm beyond the pale

Prematurity is the story of both you and me
And we were always much more human than we wished to be
Prematurity is truly the story of both you and me
And we were always much more human than we wished to be
We were always much more human than we wished to be
We were always much more human than we wished to be
We will always be more human then we wish to be

WE WILL ALWAYS BE
SO MUCH MORE HUMAN
THAN WE WISH TO BE