Up against the wall

He's trying hard to keep control and lead the way
He's finding all the perfect words to say to me
I'm climbing stairs with only one thing on my mind
To kick a habit of lost opportunity

It's only natural to want what doesn't come
I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb
But like the ending of a one act play
The curtain closes and the actors run away

And I'm up against the wall
Wondering why I came at all
Yes, I'm up against the wall
Trying to disappear
oh

I look around and watch the world as it goes by
Wondering how small, how small am I
He makes a gesture to distract me from a thought
It goes against most everything that I've been taught

It's when you wake up and you can't go back to sleep
It's when you wonder 'bout the company you keep
It's when you wake up in the middle of your life
And you just can't cut it with the dull end of a knife

And I'm up against the wall
Wondering why I came at all
Yes, I'm up against the wall
Trying to disappear
oh

You know, the way you're walkin' makes you seem larger than life
You turn the key to door, you're turning me on
My mind spins high above the world
That's the way I feel

It's only natural to want what doesn't come
I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb
But like the ending of a one act play
The curtain closes and the actors run away

And I'm up against the wall
Wondering why I came at all
Yes, I'm up against the wall
Trying to disappear
oh