Happens to the best of us

As sure as I stand here, I wait
For that instance just to reach down
And strangle my insides.
But I'll move on.
Find a better way to spend my days
And just keep telling myself:

"This is what I wanted. This is what I need"
So I'll watch you drown.
'Cause there's no way to save you now.
And it'd take me days and days and days
Just to explain all the ways
That you bring me down.

You bring me down
So I sunk to the bottom of the ocean.
I tried to find a way to keep you safe.
I let the water fill my lungs.
I tried to become a wave.
But my heart it seems
To disagree.