Sink or swim

I am an inconvenient thing
Able to see the good in everything else but myself
I'd do my best to explain
If I had something that was clever to say
But I don't. And I can't

So do I sink or swim?
I'm drowning in the "what ifs" and "could have beens"
I'm not good enough for myself, let alone anyone else
And that's just the way it is
Yeah

And I'm still alone the way I was a year ago
But it's better the devil you know instead of the devil you don't.
And I'm still alone the way I was a year ago
But it's better the devil you know, you know than the devil
You don't
Than the devil
You don't

So do I sink or swim?
I'm drowning in the "what ifs" and "could have beens"
I'm not good enough for myself, let alone anyone else
And that's just the way it is
Yeah

So I'll just waste away
And worry about everything I cannot change
Maybe I'm everything I hate
So I'll just waste away
And worry about everything I cannot change

So do I sink or swim?
I'm drowning in the "what ifs" and "could have beens"
I'm not good enough for myself, let alone anyone else
And that's just the way it is
Yeah

Maybe I'm everything I hate
Yeah
I guess I'm everything I hate
Yeah
I became everything I hate
Yeah
I'm simply everything I hate
Yeah
O, God, I'm everything I hate
Yeah