A sonnet both ugly and murderous

No i'm fine. i've lived so far my life in vain. ah! i've lived so far my life i'm tired. the only power carve a flank. don't tell me i'm tempted. sign of steady . don't! stop pulse of lightshades i'm tired. you'll find ways in your brain/tired. argh. you'll tell somebody what i am. one fake beauty said sorry i'm like you.

Just to say you should whisper. how candid i will be. and together we'll lift up. i'm waiting for love and i'll lie. i'm teaching some lesson life to me. how else to cut the red thing out and lets cut the red out together, inside i feel you.
Arghhhh!
I will fake it and fall stand tall. you're acting tired find your body laying down. i win, you can die.
Lay down i broke your knees. sit down cuz of curtesies our eyes lay inside. its why you gave up time, though that time has broken me. set sight that you might see the insides of why you gave up time. and you now you have fucking broke me, and now you have fucking broke me, and now you have fucking broke me, and now you have ... broken me.

Arghhh i, i don't know, broken knees and heres countdown inside fine you stole guide your eyes. stand hes waiting go and countdown.
Die .(i) love just for her. i love just for her. i love just for her. i love just for her. . i love just for her.
This heart is stitched around our love mistake. and in the silence i know it was my own wake. this heart is stitched around our love mistake. and in the silence i know it was my awake .this heart is stitched around our lovely love mistake. it was just silence i know it was my waken. this heart is stitched around our love mistake and in your silence i knew it was smart not weak.t his heart is stitched around our love mistake it was your silence i knew it was your lovely"