Friendleader - a karkat vantas fansong

There will be no
Soft sounds this time
No arms
Not mine at least

Should've expected this, I guess
No "shh" can sooth your beast
And it was my problem once
That violence inside your eyes

Bright red and high with death and pie
And rage that never dies

And I used to blame myself
Then I blamed everybody else
But never you

Cause you were just a messed up kid
Who'd step in it, get scared and sit
And pray for goats and Gods
Who would know what to forbid

And when you were reach out
Well I'd run my big mean mouth
And make it worse

And maybe I deserve that hurt
Destruction of my universe
So if you've gotta beat somebody up
Don't make it her

I'm sorry I messed up
I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry I messed up
I'm not a leader

Not a leader
Not a leader, friend

No more attemps to make you see
I tried, he succeeded, oh well
But what can I say to a girl
Who'd play with a noose of excuses until

Her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke
And crack goes the rope pulled true
I know enough about daught, and hating myself
To tell that you know it too

And I used to blame myself
Then I blamed everybody else
Including you

But you were perfect as you were
All angled out, a blinding blur
So bright and beautiful and clever
Yeah for sure

But when would you reach out
Well I'd run my big mean mouth
And make a mess

And now it's my turn to confess
I wasn't there, I didn't guess
That you were slipping
'Till you tripped right of the edge

I'm sorry I messed up
I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry I messed up
I'm not a leader

Not a leader
Not a leader
I'm not a leader anymore
No more

Said a thousand words
But hey never helped
I hid my scars from you
Out of shame

Took up the cause
Yeah I took the helm
But I'm not the only one
Who's changed

I knew you first
I knew you best
I wish I'd stopped it
Way back then

When things were bad
But they still made sense
When we were kids
When we were friends

Friendleaders
Friendleaders
Friendleaders
Friendleaders