I hope you know - part iii: imagine this

Dear begetters, I'm understanding
Not as callous as you fantasize
If it's compassion, you are demanding
I've really given it, not before your eyes, please
realize
Imagine me as a higher being
Imagine all the broken pieces I could mend
And eventhough I'm dreaming now
Real is the love from me I'll send out to you...
I'd love to give them a stroke
Or tell them a joke
But this was too real
I screamed up to the sky:
"Exchange theirs for mine!"
But this was all too real!
I tried to help someone out
On a beautiful, shiney day
A task so simple
Yet making my life all grey
'Cos that day I had become the worst of devils
And I wished that I was dead
I almost took two lives away
Of people... of people I'll never forget!
I know... no one deserves this
I know,.. I'm the one to blame
I know... I never meant to harm anybody
I know... I'll be living in shame!