My first day

i cant believe im going out like this.
blink of an eye will i be missed.
life flashed before, now nothing remains.
completely lost and im the one to blame.
had my chance when i heard the truth.
relied on myself waited for the proof.
oh what i'd give for a second of relief.
cause i'll tell you right now that i believe.
where did it all go wrong, it came so quick?
no one lives forever or so i used to think.
oh what i'd give for a second of relief.
cause i'll tell ya right now that i believe the pain you feel right now is never gonna leave.
the screams of billions are defeaning searing heat that never seems to lessen.
my fears im trapped with no escape.
my selfishness has sealed my fate.
i'm so lost by the second pain grows.
surrounded by all sides but im all alone.
so far from the light, this cant be it.
im being torn from limb to limb.
get me out. what do i have to say?
get me out, get me out.
this eternal torture and it's only my first day.