Into the void

Just received the news today
a dear friend of mine has passed away
the choice he made was quite clear
to end his life and disappear

First I was shocked and I couldn't believe
that he'd left the world, and let us grieve
When I sat down to think it through
the feeling caught me it was my fault too

Gone, dead, lost
all hope is
Gone, dead, lost
all joy is
Gone, dead, lost
this life is
Gone, dead, lost

Total darkness got hold of me
this feeling of guild won't let me be
why haven't I noticed this before
I could have helped him with his war

I could've fought there on his side
together we could win this fight
why didn't he come for help to me
and why was I too blind to see

How could I not see
that his life was only misery
how could I not hear
the story before this tragedy
I cannot believe
I was blind and just ignoring him
I cannot forgive
myself for this mistake

I think of it, and I'm all to blame
and I live my life in total shame
suicide is on my mind
hope for answers I will find
maybe it wasn't a bad idea
this is the last you'll hear from me
I'll say goodbye this is the end
'cause my life is…

Gone, dead, lost
all hope is
Gone, dead, lost
all joy is
Gone, dead, lost
this life is
Gone, dead, lost