Pacifist masochist

I don't want to make art
I want to make money
I just want to sell myself so I can be somebody else

Sometimes I'd rather lose myself
Rather than prove myself, oh no

I just want to keep on, keep on suffering
Cause I was told that that means
I'll be succeeding someday

Sometimes I'd rather abuse myself
Rather than prove myself, oh no
Cause I know I'm on a losing streak
Cause it's been like 3 whole weeks
Since I thought of myself

I just want to work hard to make you want me

Sometimes I'd rather accuse myself
Rather than prove myself, oh no
Cause I know I'm on a losing streak
Cause it's been like 3 whole weeks
Since I thought of myself