I don't want the world to see me

I'm alone and this is how I feel
I hide my truths up there behind the shield
I never knew how much it hurt now my heart is steel
You tried to say I lied but this is true my pain is real

I'm all alone cause all alone is where my heart is at
I'm not depressed you're the one that started it
I'm just a child living life the only way I see it
You made me cry these words are lies and I just wont believe it
You people try to make me act like I was someone else
I'm up alone I wont conform and ill just be myself
I'm blaming you cause it was you that was behind the wheel
I cannot cope I'm losing hope so tell me how to deal

Look It I'm your father so why bother you're my only son
You know I love you think about you when my day is done
I know your mad ant me were family and that wont change
I miss your mother man I love her and I feel your pain

When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this
When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this

I know you blame me for the drinking and your mothers death
Its time to swallow and I follow in your father's steps
I make mistakes this world breaks and that's a way of life
You win or lose but either way you got to pay the price
I cant sit back I cant relax and just let you destroy
I know you need me son you'll always be my baby boy
Cause its not right to fight with anybody that you need
And I'm not yelling I'm just telling you to try and speak

Well I'm not speaking cause I'm leaving all of it aside
See I'm not loved I'm too pissed off because my mother died
You do not walk with me or talk to me you haven't changed
I'm blaming you cause you're the only one to blame

When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this
When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this

Late at night I talk to mommy cause I know she's watching over me
She's hopefully protecting me I'm in her heart eternally
You should be a man and see that daddy's not the enemy
I've tried to show you that your mother lives through out our memories
I'm living not forgiven cause that's the way I have to be
Ill try to not deny and live throughout this happily
Listen daddy's sorry and I'm hoping we can talk it through
Likely There cause I don't care cause daddy I'm still mad at you

When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this
When I'm alone I let it go and throw my hands up
I fell I'm losing its confusing but I wont give up
I cant look back I'm feeling trapped inside this crisis
I don't really want the world to see me like this