Internal recession

At last i've come to terms with choices that i've made
Sometimes i've been left wanting, a sorry price to pay
But now i've seen the path. through turbulence it's laid
I watched you slip from sight. i watched you slip away!

I don't like what i've become
A spineless fuck, shit out of luck
A silhouette of my former self
A hopeless waste, another drone
Premeditated anti-pseudo beliefs
Verbally raped, unspoken lies
A disposition that will bleed you dry
This cloud of grief. it will never clear

Never fucking clear!
I lay my grief upon you
Watching you fall apart
For the last time
Hate won't fill this void

An empty shell that was filled with regret
A could have been, but never was
Unfulfilled becoming further detached
Vacant and void in every sense
My indifference got the better of me
I didn't care, couldn't admit.
It took some time but now i can see
This cloud of grief, it will never clear

I watched you slip from sight
I watched you slip away

Why do you lead me down this road again?
Down this fucking road again!
Some things will never change!
It's always been the same!

Laying my grief upon you
Watching you fall apart
As i contemplate internal recession

Watching you fall apart for the last time!