Beware the silence

I was always empty
I always tried to be
Filled with beauty
I didn't know that
Beauty wasn't made for me
Dirt and mud only will full me
My self-love was
As my own ego wank
The saliva dripping down from my mouth
My little pills are wrong
It will kill me, I know
When there is a silence around
I fall asleep
So, beware the silence around you

Her naked body is no longer excites me
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with the world around me?
My medication don't cure me
My little pills are wrong
My lips turned blue, because I bitten them
I always knew that alcohol and pills is very bad combination
But I don't know how else to escape from the reality